I am home, in VA again! (woo hoo!) seeing people, getting ready to make the trek back to CO next week. No jet lag to report, no culture shock really. Just a feeling of being home and yet leaving something close to me. I miss Rwanda, though I do love fall in DC, it's like a good friend, a warm blanket, the perfect morning...
I keep singing "The Long Defeat" by Sara Groves. It is an amazing song, my heart song at the moment. So I leave you with her words, which express what I cannot..
I have joined the long defeat, that falling set in motion.
All my strength and energy are raindrops in the ocean
So conditioned for the win, to share in victor's stories,
but in the place of ambition's din I have heard of other glories
And I pray for an idea and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave
I can't just fight when I think I'll win, that's the end of all belief,
and nothing has provoked it more than a possible defeat
And I pray for an idea and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave
We walk a while, we sit and rest, we lay it on the altar.
I won't pretend to know what's next, but what I have I've offered
And I pray for an vision and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave
And I pray for inspiration and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave
All my strength and energy are raindrops in the ocean
So conditioned for the win, to share in victor's stories,
but in the place of ambition's din I have heard of other glories
And I pray for an idea and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave
I can't just fight when I think I'll win, that's the end of all belief,
and nothing has provoked it more than a possible defeat
And I pray for an idea and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave
We walk a while, we sit and rest, we lay it on the altar.
I won't pretend to know what's next, but what I have I've offered
And I pray for an vision and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave
And I pray for inspiration and a way I cannot see.
It's too heavy to carry and impossible to leave